What should i do?!?! Please help?!?

Your drug problem will be exacerbating your anxiety and depression if not causing it. Taking more pills to calm you won't fix the problem. It will make it worse. No doctor in their right mind would give you Valium or anything simillar knowing you have drug and drink issues. Tell her about your relapse as it's highly relevant. If you want to get better then you need to commit to giving up the drink and drugs, not take more. I'm not for one minute suggesting this will be easy but it's what you have to do to get well.